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To be so devoted, yet so distant,
You never searched the shadows
Were you afriad of what you'd find
Or did you never really care at all?
I know you did, I believed every word
But this subliminal virus consumes me
Manifesting falsities in my mind
I'm sure none of it's true, though
You must have felt something, right?
Not that it could ever matter anymore
You don't even know I exist today
But I'm still right here, standing
In my own shadow, two feet away
I never expected to see you shine through like you did
It's not that you didn't want to find me,
I kept running
How could you have found me,
When I didn't let you?
Now your back is turned miles away,
But you're still so close
I need some sort of newfound divinity
To help me get to you
Because I know alone, I don't have the strength
Maybe one day I'll escape this corner
Maybe one day I'll see your face again
Maybe one day I'll tell you what I really thought
But today, you're just a disillusioned silhouette
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Stepped back and saw my 4 walls were falling
Broken stars and colored planets swarming
Into a black mesh screen of indefinate mourning
The Big Men in the wall just beamed and glared
To know I made it this far and still barely impaired
They had faith that the crude fear they had instilled
Would fuck me and leave me there to melt
When it comes to their dated philosophies, I don't need their propaganda inside of me
Reefer Madness and false empathy were the only things that had been stopping me
I shattered the mirrored walls and marched my own path to successful liberty
I won't slip and slide to the person you want me, I'll never sell out MY ME
Everywhere, I see corporate clowns with frowns but painted smiles
"BUT THATS JUST LIFE," right???
I refuse to give in to the predestined three-ring Americana periles and trials
"BUT THAT'S HOW YOU DO IT," eh???
I won't be another fucking schmuck in clown shoes, I'll make my own way
"BUT IT'S JUST WRONG," huh???
Well, if it's so damn wrong, why should I bother to live yet another day?
